Visions of a Good Life

Life really hasn't been that fun lately. I think I've gotten into the rut of doing the same thing over and over again. And, it isn''t a fun thing at all. There has been lots of drama in the house. I'm not sure if it is more than normal, but it definitely has me worn out.

So, I started talking with someone about this. Yep, seeing a therapist. I think it might be a good choice. I'm still pretty new into the process. And, honestly, I have a very difficult time talking about myself. My therapist told me the first day that I do a good job of saying the right things, but that I'm not really saying anything of value. I'm not surprised by that.

I used to have dreams. I wanted to own a house & go back to school. I accomplished those dreams. I just never thought of anything else to take their place. Instead, I've been living one day at a time. Not that there is anything wrong with that, it just makes for a boring existence since you never have anything to work toward or to look forward to.

My therapist asked me to create a vision board for our mtg on Monday. I have to put something together that illustrates what i want to accomplish - whether long term or short term. I was thrilled by the assignment. After all, I'm all into school work & I figured it would give me a chance to get crafty.  Well, here I am, on Sunday and still not sure what I want to put on it. I'm sure I'd have no problem putting together a vision board for my son. But, that's not what this is about - this is supposed to be about me.

Sigh...it just feels like work now. And, I'm not sure what I'm going to do.